Who I Think The Winner of The 2020 Debates Is

The following blog post is a long form epistolary response to a couple questions that some fb friends of mine asked me today in an AMA post I made about the presidential debate for Oct 22, 2020.

President Trump and Democratic presidential nominee Biden participate in their second debate in Nashville

I wanted very much to post my answers directly under your questions, but after some 2k characters… well, I thought a blog post would be more appropriate.

For this part of my response I want to specifically answer the following question from my fb friend whom I have known for years and years. Her name is Ellen, and I am grateful to have had a friend like her.

The Undecided Voter


To be fair, I will always be the kind of person that aims to make a more perfect opinion before I make a decision. So I have to be forthright with you when I express who I am leaning towards.

…my life out of control…


Back in 2016, I was a pot head and a drunk. I was struggling with issues in my life on such a level that this post can’t really capture. But on Bloomsday of 2016, my life out of control, I imagined this nation as a corporation, and also as a representation of my life, running wildly amuck. To me, I was part of the problem and I had this crazy idea that this HUUUGE business we are all in, called America, needed to be put back on the right course. I asked myself who I wanted to be CEO of my nation and in some ways my life. I can tell you that who I was that day was not anywhere near who I am today. But that person, Alixander circa 2016, needed to get his life back on the right path. That’s when it hit me, standing right outside of Canelle’s on second and fourth. I even recall saying it out loud.

“There is no better man to be the CEO of my life and my country than…”

Now look, I would be kidding myself if I said I took this thought seriously… aside from betting a thousand dollars that Trump would win over Clinton against my own mother, donating $20 to his campaign just to get a sticker so I could slap it on someone’s car (they shall not be named), and all the while laughing drunkenly stoned many days after he won.

…maybe I was just being a troll…


But to really showcase how unserious I took this thought… this is the part that kills me… I did not vote in 2016 and I hadn’t in any election prior. Even though I never received a ballot that year, on voting day I was too busy spending time with my friend at the park watching ducks to actually vote. Maybe I just thought he had it under control, maybe I was just being a troll, or maybe I wasn’t ready to cast my first ever ballot…

Ever since DJT took office though, my life has changed. Dramatically even. I went sober (come to find out DJT is a sober guy, too), I took my business dealings more seriously, I started considering my future, the future of my family legacy and politics at a high level view. So when the day came to actually start considering who was more deserving of my vote this election, I decided that I would take my first vote very seriously.

I considered the candidates, Ellen. And it was hard not to refer to the kinds of stories I saw or the gossip others told me about either of them. One thing rang true through all of it though, for the last four years a single man drove the world crazy. This had me perplexed, how could someone that I saw as a guiding figure in many respects, not all of them, how was he the world’s worst person? I just didn’t buy it. Truly, I was never won over by the characterization of DJT that was promulgated by the media, or by some of my close friends and family.

I wanted to take advantage of the great opportunity to watch the candidates in an unedited kind of way.


So when it really came down to it, I decided to let the debates to be a guiding element for me this year. Aside from all the mudslinging, I wanted to take advantage of the great opportunity to watch the candidates in an unedited kind of way. Under pressure, no cheers or jeers, and to be able to rewind and rewatch. So here is my analysis…

The first debate, was crazy. And to form an actual opinion from that seemed foolish. Still does. I really don’t think any more commentary is necessary here.

Then I watched the Pence-Harris debate, which doesn’t really play a huge role in how I see my vote, but the VP has some influence. And honestly, Pence is likely to be president after Trump; that dude is a really solid guy.

As for the second debate, I want to address another question, which I feel will answer your question completely.

My next question comes from my fb friend Adrienel. He and I have never formally met, however we have had many great exchanges over the internet. And while we don’t often times see things the same way – we still have civil, respectful, and encouraging discourse.

What I Valued in The Debate


Thank you for asking me who I saw as the winner from the debate, I am glad to hear that you voted already. I am grateful you are encouraging others to vote.

Honestly, Adriene, if you want to skip all my commentary about what I value, which determines how I came to determine who the winner was from the debates, you can skip to the bottom to see who I think the winner is. But if you want to know my analysis for how I came to that conclusion, keep reading.

Firstly, I saw a president who behaved quite orderly at this debate. To me this orderliness of conduct was immensely underscored by him having undergone some kind of character change. Maybe he’s had some thoughts since getting Covid, at least from a debate to debate point of view, that has changed his presentation… I am not sure. What ever it was, his behavior was refreshing.

I guess my reasoning for starting there is with regards to his comments about learning and learning to live with the virus. It was pretty powerful. As the debate continued, his views on seeing America as being a powerful country once again really came out of his talking points. The thing I noticed more so than anything else was how powerful a debater the president is. I mean, we are talking about a guy who seemingly works 24 hours a day, flying all over the country, doing two a day rallies, while also handling the affairs of the country. The guy looked great for having just gone through Covid. I really value the visual presentation of a powerful person and he looked the part to me.

The next thing I saw from Trump, which really surprised more people than just me, was his discipline in the debate. He respected the moderator, with in reason, and waited for his turn to speak. This allowed Biden to ramble off on his policies, which I really haven’t heard much about. Now, I am not the kind of person that wants to be pandered to and I don’t know of many who do, but I felt that for all the “you, the American people” comments Biden made, I enjoyed watching Trump clobber him over those comments. It was immensely satisfying to watch a disciplined person wait for the perfect moment to call Biden a politician, in a pejorative sense, when he did that whole look-in-the camera-moment.

a president is not so cut and dry


Special note here, I don’t really care about the whole Biden Scandal. Most politicians are corrupt on some level and use their political influence to create change in their financial estate. I am not so naïve to believe otherwise. I understand Trump has had a career as a business man, business follows you; and I get that some of the actions Biden may have made as a politician will result in nepotism and favors. Neither of the two candidates have lived a simple life, and maybe when I run for president I will have to reconsider how simplicity plays into my campaign and my life. These debates have really shown me that the life of a president is not so cut and dry – nor is anyone’s life for that matter.

Which brings me to my last point. I think that leaders (political figures included), need to measure up to some standard of greatness in order to be considered worthy of admiration (let alone a vote). And when I look back on the last four years of Donald J Trump’s presidency, I would have to say that he has held quite the standard in my eyes of what great leaders do: they show up to do business and they show up to handle a mess. Do great leaders solve all the problems? No. Do great leaders do or say things you don’t like? Yes. Do great leaders make a difference? Yes.

Personally, Donald J Trump has made an difference in my life. For four years I have had the opportunity to watch a man conduct business, to hire and fire, make money and cut checks, navigate turmoil and have fun. More importantly, to show up for work day after day, and then come home to his family at night (if his schedule would allow). Never once did I see him throw up his arms and say “Come on man!?” Even when he was impeached (and I watched that whole thing, too), I saw a man who relied on the people he had around him, which every smart businessperson does, and I watched a man who continued to stand by his slogan to fight to Make America Great Again.

Last night, when I watched the debate, there was something different that I had never seen before in Donald. Something I can’t quiet explain other than a feeling. A feeling that, in spite of all of the characterizations I have seen over the years about who DJT was and is, I saw a man who I felt made me the person I am today. Sure, maybe a only few of his policies have influenced my life, but here was a man that was doing his absolute best. And even if he doesn’t take presidency again, I going to continue admiring him. I am going to look to see how he is doing and how he is conducting business. Truth be told, Biden doesn’t inspire that feeling in me at all.

My intention is to vote for someone who most closely aligns with my values: order, power, discipline, simplicity, and greatness.


So what this all boils down to is this: I have the privilege this year of voting. My intention is to vote for someone who most closely aligns with my values: order, power, discipline, simplicity, and greatness. And of the two, with regards to this debate, I do not see Biden as an orderly, powerful, or disciplined person. And while I know he isn’t a man who’s lived simply, I absolutely do not see Biden as a great man. With that said, in respects to the debate, I saw Trump as an orderly, powerful, disciplined man who has not lived a simple life, but has lived a great life.

The winner of the debate is…

And so, to answer one last question of another fb friend, Holly. She and I have known each other for many many years and while we clash on a few topics, we also share many similar views too.

When I go to the voting booth this year, Holly, I am voting for Trump. And while I might not have the pleasure of seeing my vote carry DJT to a second term, at the very least I will have cast my vote in line with my values (as closely as the options will allow).

I hope that America will continue to make incredible leaders to lead this country and its businesses forward into the greatness I want and work towards every day. To me, a great life comes down to simply that. I am grateful that I have examples of men like Donald J Trump, even if they aren’t like me and who I never want to ultimately be, of whom I can refer to for certain expressions of order, power, discipline, simplicity, and greatness; this debate being one such example.

The real winner is me


So to answer your question, the real winner is me; just watching that guy inspires me to be great.

Alixander the Great reads The Great Captains

So recently I did a blog post called Novel Book Report: The Chrysalids, and I had a lot of fun doing a book report on a novel. I was also very passionate about that book, and so it isn’t too surprising that I would want to cover it.

For today’s blog post, I wanted to do a book report on a really different kind of book. Not one that falls in the sci-fi world, but one that borrows heavily from both historical influences and myth. I am talking about historical fiction regarding the birth of Britain and mythos known as the Arthurian Legend. The novel is called: The Great Captains.

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Henry Treece paints a sweeping panorama of proto-Britain using characters that you might be able to recognize either from the Romanticized version of the Arthurian Legend, e.g. Artos, Merdin, Calibrun, or from Romanized names like Londinium or Ambrosius. And all of this is done a very natural kind of way, actually, which was rather surprising. It waskind of fun to take some of the names that Treece offers and try to reconstruct where or who he is writing about.

Now this book, as said by its back cover, isn’t for those who don’t “have nerves of steel.” It follows the gruesome adventures of many great heros, namely Medrawt and Artos, and the many battles that befell them. Of these battles, Treece describes them with artistic depth and realistic depiction A number of times even I found myself thinking how lucky I am not to be doing battle in a similar fashion. I mean, an arrow to the throat doesn’t sound all that fun to die by and literally thousands of men and horses die this way in the book. Very sad, really.

But this book is more than that, the gruesome violence, it is a tale about the complexities and intricacies of establishing an empire, or building a kingdom. I think that many of us fail to grapple with the absolute brutality of the older generations of man’s existence. There was a time when you were measured not by the wealth that you could display, although that was important, but by the ruthless measures you displayed in battle, on horseback, with a sword or ax in hand. I am not bemoaning this, but we are an incredibly soft people compared to the savage natures of those generations not less than a thousand years ago.

So what will you get out of this text? That’s a great question. You will most certainly enjoy the quick writing style of Treece and his ability to entertain you through the most boring of details. I mean, who would have thought that the financial accounting of Britain would actually play an important part of how to govern a nation? Who would have thought that the influence of Christianity in the West was not only a contentious feature to living in the new land, but that many did not share in the belief, and they thought it strange? Who would have thought that London has always been an absolute mess for a cosmopolitan and that it most likely always will be on account of its vibrant shipping lanes?

But seriously, I can almost hear you asking from across the expanse of the internet, what would compel me to actually read this book? Well, its brutal. And I think that for a book that crawled out of the the late fifties, something like this would have been incredibly impolite to read aloud or to let on that you read books like this. The brutality that is demonstrated reminded me very seriously of that book A Clockwork Orange. But that book really isn’t that gruesome or ultraviolent when taken into context with the kinds of bloodshed that has been spilt in this book. I mean, sure, some punk going around causing mayhem and absently killing people just cause he is a punk is one thing; but how about stringing up a brain damaged man, cutting off his genitals, and sending him as a message to a ruling brother? I mean, the brutality just doesn’t compare.

So if you’ve been interested in getting into a book that no one has ever told you about, and the subject matter is almost familiar as it reflects on history and legend, then check out The Great Captains by Henry Treece. Truly, a fun book.

Novel Book Report: The Chrysalids

If you have been wondering what to read lately, and you haven’t like many of the book suggestions that I have offered on this site, I have got a fun book for you.

You see, I would like to consider my self a philologist of sorts. I like to read the classics and apply them liberally to contemporary culture. That’s one thing that philologists do. The other thing that we do, as long as I am calling my self one, is that we like to take texts that aren’t normally conveyed into the public’s eye and bring them to light.

John Wyndham did a fantastic job with this gripping science fiction novel from 1955.

The book I’d like to bring to your attention is a splendid novel regarding the potential future of the world in light of the never ending threat of nuclear war. But before I get into the world building too much, let me introduce: The Chrysalids.

This book has been a wonderful book to recommend to others as of late, no one has read it and the topic of the science fiction is incredibly palpable. Normally when I open a science fiction tale I am immediately turned off by weird sounding names of characters or absolutely drab universe building narratives. The Chrysalids introduces the farm of Waknak so elegantly and the land of Labrador so well, that you hat will be absolutely floored to learn that this book is highly overlooked.

Okay, I can hear you asking me now, what’s it all about. Well, I am not going to give anything away. I can’t. Really, I can’t. Alright, there are some small details that I can tell you. Like that the story is about a boy named David, and that he lives in a very observant religious community that abhors mutants, “Deviations” as they are sometimes called. But with out getting too much into the nitty-gritty of the book, I wanted to ask you something, if that is cool with you.

Have you ever considered your self different? have you ever met others that didn’t fit in with the norms of the community? Have you ever heard someone being treated differently just because they were not like “everybody”? Have you met anyone who you thought was truly one of a kind? Have you met anyone who was exceptional, or have you ever seen an animal that you had no idea existed?

Again, just thoughts to get your mind turning about this book. But I can promise you that the was the book develops and the gut wrenching emotions that are often evoked are absolutely heart rending. There is this one part that darn near took me to tears all because they said “…I – oh, why do they do that to us? why didn’t they kill me? It would have been kinder than this…” I am telling you, I darn near cried every manly tear in me when I read that passage.

…I – oh, why do they do that to us? why didn’t they kill me? It would have been kinder than this…

The Chrysalids

but it is difficult to explain what it is like to be in the know about this book. It is a lot like bing a part of a really cool work team where you have a strong communication network and great tools that reflect it. Or a social network where the group is incredibly supportive and understanding. Once you have read this book, you can see an idea was growing out of the middle of the last century that would take root in so many important facets of family, friend, and work life.

Oh, the book is like 200 pages. Just go get it already. It is super worth every single guilty minute that you put into it. And for those of you who have read it, speak up in the comments and let us know what you thought of Chrysalids.